tuned in: ou de yang
Its 2.30am in the morning.
Tried sleeping since 12.30am.
I guess the caffine is keeping me awake?
But i wonder why the medication is not taking effect at all?
Couldnt sleep at all...
tried listening songs to sleep.
Ends up thinking and wondering soo soo much more.
I like the weather...
its raining... my favourite.
I should not even consider or even think about it at all.
yet i cannot seem to help it.
Everything just seems to come back to square one.
However impossible... however impossible.
Perhaps I shld be content.
And live in the happy moments.
before they will gone like every other moments before.
My mind is wrap.
gosh.
complexity.
How many times I've said to live the life I WANT.
Life is bout tis short.
Why bother soo much.
Why worry soo much.
Why think soo much.
But i noe i cannot do so.
Coz of soo many things.
Coz of everything that matters.
Everything that REALLY MATTERS TO ME.
Even throughout my life i have been through soo much..
Yet i feel very very lucky.
I am surrounded by sooo many ppl who really care fer me.
Evn though i never say much.
I appreciate every single thing.
I do.
I really do.
Just.. sometimes i react indifferently.
For better or worst.
Let him judge.
For temptation is such a strong sin tt i fail to resist since a long time ago.
I tried. I prayed. soo soo many times.
I really do.
now. just lost.
:x
- when i see u smile, tt is whn i noe everythin will be alrite.
