tuned in:Love the way - five times august
Very very old post...
Found it on my com. I wonder y its still here? posting it.. and deleting it..
here it is...
" Then, I neva know really what wonders love can actually bring to someone. Then, I probably think
that the childish people around me are just wasting their time on something that they have not experienced
as yet. Yet all this while, I was as ignorant as them. Who is to judge? Someone who have received love
before, however neva really accepting any, as well as neva really loving soo much as I do now.
Until the day you have really loved someone, would you be considered living your life. It may not
only be love between couples, it could be as simple as love between parent and kid,
brother and sister...and the other wonders of love.
Times with my mum has really been bittersweet, there were definitely soo many occasions when I
wanted to give up. To just be emphatic to all that is said and done. It was and still never easy.
The pain that come pierces right through the heart. Something that may just not be comparable with
physical pain. Perhaps that is why soo many others choose to hurt themselves physically. Hoping to
become numb to it all. I have learnt all this while to cope with it. Sometimes it really hurts soo much
you cannot help but break down and cry. It just comes naturally. Yet, I know that it is about standing
up again knowing that whatever it is, it was not intentional. Yes. However painful it may be.
Now that I have experienced love, and am still loving with all my heart, many things become
secondary. The greatest thing said you'll ever learn, is to love, and be love in return. That I will
always remember. I may not really lost my love as yet. I dare not think of how painful it is gona be
should such a day come. I will though never regret all the love given. No matter where it may end. I
am happy that it happened. And now am living happily...being loved by my love. That is what matters now.
Yes. The present makes all things possible. I have learnt the future may just end this day.
Live everyday as if its your last. With no regrets...
Why Why Love. It may seem like every other love drama, with all the crying and falling sick and
sad endings. However, it only takes one to know another. Only when you have experienced the fear of
falling sick and the possiblity of dying that you'll treasure all things that matter.
I did asked myself this question. Should one day I am to fall terminally ill. Would I leave my
love and suffer on my own? I guess i would. knowing that if i give up on the love, the other party
will carry on with life some day. And not know that i will be a burden for the rest of his/her life.
As even if I am to die, the memory of such tragedy will be an pain forever etched in his/her life.
I'd rather suffer alone. Perhaps that is the only thing I could and would do for my only one.
The only fear I have is not bearing to do so. The last resort is to leave without a word if all
else fails. Easier said then done. lol.
If only I had all capacity to turn all hatred to love, if only.
I would just wana apologise to all others that I have not been in contact in a long long while.
Like most of my close friends. Not gona give any excuses, definitely guilty as charged. Yet, I know in
times of need they will definitely be there for me, as much as I will be for them. It is an unseen
agreement made. (: yes.
Sounds like I'm very emo?! haha. But just really hope that everyone do take time to reflect...
What are the things that really matter in life. And are we putting all this things to top priority as
much as we wish to.. Or are we just neglecting all else important. If ever love was lost... To not forget
the love but focus on other poeple who care and really love you.And to those who are happily in love.
Dont get mad when your other half did not do something to please you.. Be glad that they are yours..
Isnt that all that matters.. The presence of the one you love by your side.
BE GRATEFUL. ((=
I choo choo choose you!"
- Now i've felt and noe what it means to be emotionally hurt, but i will stand up to it all and be the positive self once more. :D
Suddenly feeling heart burn.
I wonder why la.. its not like i din eat or anything?!
n my the sun burn on my back is really bad. its really red.
And it hurts.
I am thinking too much sun tanning lotion. wt u think?!
But still i am really glad to not be "bai zhan zi" anymore! :D
