tuned in: beach boys - wont it be nice
I jus got advice on not to take hospitality again.
wt tt i wont be suitable.. better to look for something else
that i'm into.. outdoor.. etc..
i'm feelin all confused again..
like.. they may jus be rite.. in this line u gotta noe how to
like get urself to the top. otherwise. u'll forever be at the bottom.
n its the truth.
I feel really terrible now. its like.. i'm losing myself.
n i really mean it. Don even noe wt i'm gona do now??
I've never took the same path ppl take.
tts not wt i wana do.
Doin things for the sake of.. getting the security?!
I dun wana regret anything in the future..
although i've been stagnant for so long..
yet i've gain quite alot..
prolly things tt i don get to do n learn if i was in so call 'mainstream'.
Was arguing wif mum again in the morn.
As usual.. thing bout me not starting sch / getting a proper job..
with fixed pay tt is..
like. u think i dun wana start sch?
now after today's advise...
being such fickle minded again?!
i'm @ square 1 again..rather.. worst..
I reckon i cant make any decision till this pt of time..
I really really dunno..
Jus feeling so tired...
so so tired..
really...
And this freakin flu is not making things any better.
*plz tell me wt im ta do...*
